Do you believe in spiritual warfare?
I have experienced it in the past day and a half.
I feel like I am in the middle of running a marathon in the desert. I am weary beyond belief and just want to cross the finish line. I feel I can’t run a mile longer. I just want it to be over.
It’s a good thing God can move mountains with faith as small as a mustard seed because I’m pushing it right now to even have faith as small as a mustard seed.
All I can do is cry in anticipation of tomorrow.
Back to the issue of spiritual warfare …
I’ve said from the beginning of this marathon I want God to receive the glory through my circumstances. And I do.
Scroll down a few posts and look over all the names representing PRAYER tomorrow. Wherever God is at work, Satan is there working double-time. Satan knows no matter what happens tomorrow, God will receive glory. So he is working time and a half to destroy the mustard seed of faith I have.
Fear is one of his greatest weapons and he has used that against me.
As I’ve been a ball of tears the past two nights Dave has asked me, "Are you just afraid of what will happen Wednesday." I then mutter, "Yes."
Fear paralyzes. Fear cripples. Fear weakens. Fear destroys faith.
Satan plants fear in our hearts to destroy faith. He also tries everything in his power to change our focus and our perspective.
Instead of going to the Word of God for strength, so I can keep running to the finish line, I allowed myself to lose focus.
I went to the internet to read other infertility blogs, looking for hope. Big mistake.
I found a blog I had never read before. Sure enough, when the person found out she was pregnant she had experienced implantation spotting. Reading this only served to send me further into the depths of despair because I’ve experienced none of the early pregnancy symptoms most everyone I read about does experience once pregnant.
The point is that when you’re running a marathon in the desert the only thing your body screams for is water. The Word of God is like water to the person running a marathon in the desert.
Where should I have gone? The Word of God.
It is only there that I will find true hope and strength to keep running.
Fix these words of mind in your hearts and minds; tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Deuteronomy 11:18
I woke up this morning thinking about all this. It dawned on me that Satan is attacking me. I simply cannot allow it.
Today my focus will be my faith, even though it is as small as a mustard seed. But God’s Word clearly says that is all it needs to be.
I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, "Move from here to there and it will move." Nothing will be impossible for you. Matthew 17:20
[Do you realize just how small a mustard seed really is? A mustard seed is one-sixteenth of an inch in diameter!]
Satan may be able to rock my boat – but He cannot, in the name of Jesus Christ, capsize it.
Let me add one more prayer request for tomorrow …
3. Pray against the attacks of Satan. Satan must flee when just the name of JESUS is said.
Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7