Beginning to ponder next step…

I came across this verse this morning:

What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs. Matthew 10:27

This verse serves as just one more reminder that all these truths that God is teaching me along the way while I am walking this dark road, I will one day be able to speak about as just one more testimony of God’s faithfulness towards me.

Bottom line is: One day darkness will be no more. God will shed His light on His Plan. From day one of this journey, I have known that it is just that – a journey. It will end. And I believe with all my heart that one day, victory will be won and on this road I will walk no more.

Somehow, someway, I believe with all my heart that God will one day bless us with children.

And then, the truths about God’s love and faithfulness that He has whispered in my ear along this journey, will be proclaimed for anyone listening to hear.


I had the second blood draw today for this Clomid Challenge Test. As the new year approaches, it is time, once again, to be still and let God speak and direct us towards our next step.

Dave and I have briefly talked about another IUI cycle, but the discussion basically stopped when we both just were not ready to go through that again.

Three failures makes it kind of hard to head into a fourth with hope.

But then I think about the endometriosis being gone. It was so long ago that I talked with Dr. L, since we haven’t done anything fertility related since my surgery at the beginning of November, that what he told me about my chances of a successful IUI cycle post-surgery is in a fog somewhere in the back of my brain.

It seems he told me that since the endometriosis is gone, our success rates with IUI would greatly increase, as long as there isn’t an issue with the sperm being able to penetrate an egg.

If there is, then we are headed for two more failed IUIs at the cost of over 3,000 dollars and then back to square one of deciding what’s next! And to even start considering those options at this point would be silly.

It’s really all dependant on what Dr. L tells me on January 15th. He will go over my Clomid Challenge Test results and then he will lay out on the table the options best for us. I trust, like God has in the past, He will gently nudge us in the direction we are to take next.

Once decided, I will push forward, not looking back, rally my prayer warriors, feast on His Word and deal with things one day at a time. Those are my biggest coping mechanisms and how I survived the first three IUIs and how I will survive any future IUIs.

4 thoughts on “Beginning to ponder next step…

  1. Praying for WISDOM for both of you and Dr. Lipari.

    Praying for His WILL to be accomplished in your lives.

    Praying for continued Peace which we have only through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

    “Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.” John 14:27

    God will provide what you need to go through another procedure … be it IUI or IVF.

    From my recollection, Dr. Lipari said your chances at a successful IUI were now much better. His words were, “Now we’ve just got to get her pregnant!” I’ll always remember that.

  2. I hope you find the right path.We are wondering the same thing after 3 failed IUI’s. We meet with out Dr. tomorrow for a consultation on what path we should take next. We are heavily leaning on IVF. I hope God leads you in the right direction!! Praying for you:)

  3. What a funny God we serve…My husband and I have struggled with IF for over 8 years and have moved many times during that time. With in the past few months I have finally found a new Dr around our new home and have started treatments once again. Monday was one of those days for me that was filled with anxiety and doubt about our child who I know has been promised to us for whatever reason. When I started praying and asking God to give me peace He led me to that EXACT SAME VERSE! I don’t ever remember reading it before. But when I came to your page this morning and saw that verse it just brought confirmation to me of what an AWESOME Father we serve! Please know that no matter where the Lord leads you during your journey that you and your family are being prayed for far and wide!

  4. praying for wisdom girl. man these really are tough decisions. we’re right there with you although not your exact situation. who knows….maybe you’ll get a clomid challenge baby and you won’t have to make a decision. i’ll pray for that.

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