My Biggest Fear
In this decision-making process, I have come to realize that my biggest fear in moving towards any direction is fear that at the end we will still hear those five dreaded words: “Sorry, you are not pregnant.”
Realizing this was Step One in not allowing fear to consume me.
Step Two is diving into the Word of God and pulling out verse after verse about fear.
The fear I’m talking about is not the reverent fear we should all have for God.
The fear I’m talking about is a downright all-consuming, dark-cloud-hovering-all-around-you kind of fear.
God has a lot to say about both types of fears and the verses I’m digging out of the Bible have to do with the “dark cloud” kind of fear.
Every day I am spending time looking up verses about fear and then writing the message behind them in my “infertility journal”. Then I write down the truth from God’s Word I received for that day. I’m on day three and the first verse I found was:
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity [fear], but a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline. I Timothy 1:7
Here is what I wrote in the journal about this verse:
God is my creator and He did not create me with a spirit of FEAR. God has given me a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline. A spirit of power! We also know from Scripture that when we are weak, we are strong because of God’s power and strength within us. So as I go through whatever lies ahead in the near future, I must cling to this and know God has given me the power and strength to endure whatever happens. And when I look inside myself I should see power and strength from God pushing out all fear.
Truth One: God has given me a spirit of POWER – not fear.
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Amen to that! God didn’t intend for us to be fearful. That kind of fear reveals a lack of trust in God’s perfect plan and His love that will get you through anything you encounter. Take those fearful thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ (2 Cor. 10:5). I have complete confidence that you are going to make it through all of this even stronger on the other side (as I’m sure you’re already experiencing). And people all over are joining you in prayer and support.
Elaine,
1 Timothy 1:7 is one of U. Jay and mine most favorite verse. Like you, it is the spirit of fear that I battle and this verse has given me much hope and strength to be able to move thru life’s challenges. I’m so glad you have found and claimed this verse for yourself.
Love you both very much! A. Naomi
Psalm 121:1-2
“I will lift up my eyes unto the hills,
From whence cometh my help.
My help cometh from the Lord,
Which made heaven and earth.”
Love you, Mama
I LOVE this post…It reminds me of a Rebecca St. James song that God often brings to my mind when I feel like I’m sinking in a situation instead of swimming with Him…
Crazy to think That Your holy hands Made everything I see
It’s so hard to believe That You the God of creation say
I’ve got this power in me
In me there is strength to move a mountain; In me there is faith to walk on water In me; If I just believe; The Way and the Truth and the Life is In me
So please remind me When I feel useless; That my flesh and bone Has more than meets the eye
Because you burn Like a fire was in me; And there’s nothing out of reach when I; Let your Spirit loose and be alive.
Hope the words of this song will bring you peace and comfort. Praying for you and your husband as continue on this jouney.
You are so inspiring, I myself have been dealt a hand I never thought I would–infertility. Keep up the inspiring post…you are in my prayers!
I just found your blog and I am so thankful that I did. Your posts are so encouraging and I think God led me straight to your post on pilgrimage. How wonderful- thank you!
I read your post and then had to run out the door but it kept echoing in my mind what you had written and God placed a verse in my heart and that I needed to tell you what He had shared with me:
Fear is an emotion that is not of God and we know this because in 1 John 4:8 we are told that “God is love” and then in 1 John 4:18 it says “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.”
If there is no fear in love and God is love then we know that fear is not of God. And we can also claim then that God and His love will drive out this fear that invades our hearts during difficult times. Fear is an emotion that only drags us down and causes emotional punishment but allowing God to have ownership and control of our hearts will allow Him to come in and drive out that fear for us. Allow that perfect love of God to fill your heart and bring that peace that is beyond all comprehension and He will guide you as you make your next decision.
i can totally relate to this…thanks. we found ourselves making decisions based on fear recently and had to pull ourselves back from that. glad God allowed you to realize it now so you can make a better decision.