Family, Travel and another impending decision

Exactly 21 months ago we were in Brazil for my cousin’s wedding. I have not seen Cristina since she got in the limo the night of her wedding and drove off.

I am very excited because today at 4pm, she and her husband, Marcio, will arrive here! Even though the time spent together is only a fraction of the time we have been apart, we are very close, and I am so grateful to have this time with her this week and to be able to get to know Marcio better.

Saturday afternoon my great aunt (Aunt Helen) died at the age of 89. Last October on her 89th birthday she announced that she did not want to live to be 90. Aunt Helen lived a good life of service to the Lord.

Tomorrow my parents, Grandmother, Cristina, Marcio and me will travel to North Carolina to attend her funeral. Dave can not go because of his work so he will stay behind and take care of Puppy and Ellie. We will return on Wednesday after the funeral. So if I am MIA over the next couple of days on this blog…you’ll know why.

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I’ll definitely be on here at some point to let you know the results of the IUI. I’m still planning to not go in for blood work on Friday, so I may not know anything until Monday.

At this time, making a decision of “what’s next”, should the results of this IUI be the same as the previous ones, is quite possibly the most overwhelming decision we’ve had to make thus far on this journey.

The obvious big question is … Do we try IVF again?

There are so many factors that go into making this decision. I’m not going to get into them right now.

I am just once again asking people to please pray heavily that God would clearly make known what our next step is to be.

Can I just say that I am tired of all this? Tired of … everything. But when I step back and attempt to look at the big picture and what God is doing, it helps.

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is a season of my life, not my life. I know one day I will look back on this season and see the purpose.

When I step away from the heartache and pain and see all this for the way God sees it, I am deeply encouraged. I am encouraged to know that God is working in ways, at this time, we cannot see. I am encouraged because I know God is using these circumstances of my life to accomplish His plan. I am encouraged because I know God is receiving glory. I am encouraged because, even though Satan attempts to destroy me, he is defenseless because I am shielded with the armor of God. I am encouraged because so many people have rallied together through prayer. And mostly, I am encouraged because I know one day this story God is writing through my life will come to a beautiful ending … and a new story will begin.

10 thoughts on “Family, Travel and another impending decision

  1. Elaine, I am sorry for your loss.

    I also wanted to let you know that I am here often reading your blog. You are a wonderful writer and such an inspiration. We are praying for you.

  2. I haven’t talked to you in a while, but I’m happy to read that you are doing well. I’m sorry to hear about your aunt, but I know you will have a great trip with your family. Grace wants me to tell you that she got a REAL sewing machine. (Shane’s dad bought it for her). She is so excited.

    I’m praying that God shows you His plan clearly. I love you! Ashlie

  3. Yes indeed.

    We stopped by your house to pick up Puppy and Marcio (a pastor) wanted to have a prayers for you and Dave. We joined hands and he prayed in Portuguese. BUT, Puppy would not let Cristina and me hold hands. She was on the corner of the bed and pawed at us so I just petted her the whole time he prayed that very sweet prayer for you all. I’m sure we’ll be doing more praying these days when we are together.

  4. i understand the being tired. i’m right there with u. i’m so tired of what i call, my 2nd job. it’s so hard to schedule everything around work, and to mentally keep preparing yourself for what each month brings. i’m tired of needles and injectibles and checking levels. but most of all i’m tired of not being me. but God is good and He has a greater plan than me. He has proved Himself time and time again… i know He’ll see us through. God bless!

  5. Elaine I am sorry for the loss of your Aunt. I am praying for you, and for your decision about whether or not to do IVF (but hopefully this cycle will work and you won’t have to worry about that!)

  6. Stand on the faith you show in this recent post, it’s difficut, but God rewards the faithful. I completely understand the “being tired of this” feelings you have. God understands too. But you’re right… this is only a season in your life… and for all that has been taken away, God will restore. I fully believe that. I believe in my life and I believe if for yours. The journey is necessary otherwise He’s not have us endure them… the bigger the mountain, the bigger the blessing on the otherside… your blessing that awaits continues to grow throughout each phase of your trial. Cling to Him even when things seem unfair… I know you do, though…

  7. I am sorry for the loss of your great aunt Helen.

    I am praying that God will clearly direct your next steps.

    Thank you for the reminder that “this is a season of my life, not my life,” I really needed to hear that.

  8. I just now was able to read this blog. Neat to see you mentioned Marcio and me… 🙂
    I am so glad we were with you all! What a great time we had.
    I am very thankful for the friendship we have, even though we have never been physically together much. Love you cuz, Cristina

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