Around the time of Little Bug’s birth, I imagined Little Bug hitting the 6 month mark and us getting word to the adoption agency that we are ready for them to start matching us with another birth mom.
Little Bug is 6 months old and I am so not ready to even begin thinking about that process again!
It’s not because I am totally overwhelmed with motherhood. The opposite is true … I absolutely LOVE where my life is right now and I cannot imagine anything better than being a stay-at-home-mom to Little Bug.
She is everything I dreamed having a child would be … and more. And at this point, I just cannot imagine parenting any other child in the world besides her!
This comes as a complete surprise to me as I have always desired to have four children.
I know one day I’ll get that baby-itch again but right now, that is the last thing on my mind!
And, truth be told, emotionally, I am just not ready to embark on the ups and downs of another adoption. It’s a wild ride and considering the fact that my life, for the past two years, has been a wild ride, I am just ready to live a normal life for a while, leaving adventure out of the equation for a while!
I know one day I (we) will be ready to add another member to our family and I definitely want Little Bug to be a big sister!
When that day comes I will stand strong in the Lord and watch His mighty plan unfold yet again.
When we first set out to have a baby, my heart was not softened to the fact that my plans may not be God’s Plan.
I know that when we set out to add a second child to our family, my heart will go at it in surrender to God’s perfect plan from the start.
Even now, I know God has another miracle awaiting. And just like He did with Little Bug, He will perfectly orchestrate every last detail of that child joining our family.
All I have to do is wait in obedience to Him and listen for Him to tell me it’s time.
And in the meantime, savor every day with my precious Little Bug.