It’s here again.
The anniversary of 3/8/09.
It’s a date that won’t ever go by without me remembering the events of that day.
It was the turning point of my journey through infertility.
It was the day that separated infertility treatments and adoption.
It was a devastating day for me.
It was the platform God used to perform a miracle …
The Miracle of Little Bug.
On that day, March 8, 2009, I didn’t know how I was going to make it past that day, but now, two years later, I look back on that day with thanksgiving in my heart.
If God had allowed that IVF cycle to produce more than just The Lone Ranger, or if God had prompted us to give IVF another try instead of turning in adoption paperwork a month and day later, I wouldn’t be the mother of this precious little girl.
God knows what He is doing! I will be the first to admit that I questioned God on that day. Nothing made sense on March 8, 2009. Nothing.
There were tons of people praying during that IVF cycle. We had already gone through three failed IUIs. Four months prior, I had undergone surgery to remove endometriosis. My doctor had given me high hopes of finally achieving a pregnancy with this IVF cycle.
And then everything that could possibly have gone wrong, went wrong! I left the doctor’s office a total mess, totally clueless what God was doing and with my head filled with a million and one Why? questions.
And then, just when things couldn’t get any worse God was asking me to lay my desire for pregnancy at His feet and pursue adoption immediately.
What? Are you crazy, God? Don’t you know this has been my desire since I was a little girl? Surely, you are not serious about this?!?!
Oh, He was serious alright. I knew there was not going to be another try at IVF.
I praise God that He didn’t make me wait long to find out just what He was up too.
Twelve weeks later, instead of staring at a tiny, flickering heartbeat on an ultrasound screen, I was staring at this:
Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21
Staring at Little Bug’s tiny little face almost two years ago allowed me to see why I had to live 3/8/09.
Oh, God’s love for us is deeper and wider than our human minds will ever be able to fully comprehend!
I praise Him for this journey!