living in neutral

This is something I wrote two days (March 10) after my friend sent me the text about the adoption situation and wondered if we would be interested:

Even when I try to keep my emotions in neutral when we are in a place like this where there is an opportunity but we don’t know where it will go…sometimes it is hard to stay in neutral.

When I say “neutral” I mean that I am not letting myself get hopeful, excited or carried away with dreaming about things should we be chosen.

But even better than describing this state as living in “neutral” it can be described as “walking step by step in faith”.

When this is on my mind, I am completely at peace: If this is our baby nothing is going to destroy God’s Plan to place this baby in our family. Nothing. Absolutely nothing!! (Jeremiah 29:11)

I must keep my eyes focused on that truth as I run this leg of the journey to #2. Keep my eyes focused on the prize—and the prize isn’t necessarily this baby.

The prize is God’s perfect amazing plan that will bless us with another child in His timing.

That is the prize!

Hebrews 12:2

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith.

One thought on “living in neutral

  1. I love your description of living in neutral. Without going into details, we are living in neutral this week. And I am completely at peace with whatever happens because I know God is in control.

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