I hate not being able to tell specifics. I really do.
The adoption plan is still in place at this time, however, there are some things that have happened that have complicated things for everyone involved.
And our lawyer told us to pray that God would bind “X” from happening, which could complicate things even further.
All of this, of course, leaves me feeling on edge.
I see the ticker up there and I see it says only 25 days and I just pray God allows this baby to come as soon as possible, although I know she will come on the appointed day God has chosen for her birth.
However, Melody is ready, we are ready and with these complications, it would just be a merciful act of God to allow Sweet Pea to go ahead and be born.
But the fact of the matter is God is still in control. And I am not.
And tonight, that is what is on the forefront of my mind.
It is almost as if God is reminding me of all that He has already done to place this baby with us and He is now asking me if I am going to continue to trust in Him to complete His work or if I am going to stupidly try to regain control and sit and worry for the next 25ish days.
I am going to trust God.
And let me tell you, even after all that God has already done in my life, it is a struggle to relinquish control and just rest in the knowledge that GOD IS IN CONTROL, not me.
But I know it is a choice that I have to make.
Am I going to worry or am I going to trust?
And I really feel like God has brought me to this place so that I can bypass the frazzled worry stage I usually put myself through before I finally surrender and just let God do His work in my life.
Tonight I am going to trust first.
Because I know God’s got this.
I know God is faithful.
I know He has a plan that will prosper me and bring me hope and a future.
And you know what?
I’m glad these complications are in the Hands of the One who created the universe, hung the stars in the sky and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
He can handle this.
Because nothing is too great for Him.
I feel your prayers and I know the prayers of many are a huge part of the peace I feel tonight.