There is a verse in the Bible about Satan being like a prowling lion, seeking to kill, steal and destroy. I can feel Satan prowling around my heart right now…making me feel anxious and uptight, making me impatient with Little Bug, trying to steal my time so I do not take time to get with the Lord and gain what I need to walk through these days.
Yes, the spiritual warfare is as thick as molasses right now. Satan does not want me to trust God. Satan wants me to worry.
Satan wants me to feel restless, like I did last night, instead of being wrapped in a blanket of peace from God.
I hate these days of adoption!! If I could fast-forward to the end, I would. But I must live every second from here to the day we find out this baby is ours. And sometimes those seconds seem like an hour and time seems to not be moving forward but to be standing still.
It is during these days I am reminded that my babies don’t come into this world the “normal” way. There isn’t excitement in the days leading up to the birth as I anticipate the arrival of my baby because Sweet Pea is not my baby yet. I pray she is but before she can be, TPR must be signed.
The only thing I can manage is living one day at a time and sometimes, one minute at a time. Sometimes the anxiety gets to me and I just wish I could go to sleep and wake up when all this is behind me.
But this is the road God has called me to walk and I want to be found faithful.
Words cannot express how much your prayers mean to me. More than anything right now, the comments on the blog, an email or a text that just says, “I’m praying for you.” mean the world to me! THANK YOU!!
Sweet Pea should be here any day now. When you pray for Melody and Sweet Pea please pray for a safe delivery, healthy baby and peace. When you pray for me, please pray that I will keep my eyes on the LORD though all this and not allow Satan to derail me and destroy my faith.
Spiritual warfare is no fun, especially when you are right smack in the middle of it.
I am glad I already know Who wins.
This week is about God’s glory and the victory is His.
I must keep trusting God, knowing He is in control and He’s got this.