I want that for Tracy

Today during the church service a couple stood in front of the congregation and told their testimony.

Both of them are recovering drug addicts.

As they described everything about their pasts, the tears began to well up in my eyes because they were describing the lifestyle that Little Bug’s birth mother, Tracy, lives.

And yet, there that couple stood in front of a large group of people telling of how GOD had saved them from their stronghold to drugs and alcohol.

When the audience gave them a standing ovation after they were finished sharing their testimony, I could no longer hold back tears.

As we stood there clapping and as I tried with everything in me to NOT cry (because I hate crying in public!), Dave leaned down and whispered, “What’s wrong?”

I quickly scribbled on my church bulletin, I want that for Tracy.

In that moment my heart was so overtaken and burdened for Tracy.

It has been since I realized the life that Tracy lives but I have never felt so convicted to pray for her as I did during those moments when I witnessed with my own eyes a couple God has rescued from that lifestyle and who now proclaim the name of Jesus Christ and lean on Him to overcome their addictions.

You see, I admit to thinking, I wonder if there is any hope for Tracy? Can someone who has lived this lifestyle and been a slave to these addictions for decades really overcome this stuff??

God gave me the opportunity last summer to pour my heart out to Tracy over a telephone conversation. I was able to tell her that she could make decisions that would change the course of her life from this day forward. That God could help her find release from her current lifestyle.

But as we hung up I felt like my words fell on deaf ears.

I do pray for Tracy (and Melody) often but not as I really should.

As I looked at that couple standing before me today, I realized I am powerless to change Tracy.

The only thing I can do is pray for her – daily.

Pray for God to move in her life. Pray for God to help her see her need for a Savior. Pray for her drug abuse to disgust her. Pray for her heart to be softened to the Words of God.

Pray for God to release her from these addictions so that she can find new life in Him.

I so desperately want this for Tracy.

It is easy to forget about someone you never see. I haven’t seen Tracy in over a year and I have no idea if and when I will ever see her again.

At the same time, I love Tracy with a love that is hard to adequately describe because of the way our lives are forever intertwined together by one special little girl.

I wish I could snap my fingers and change her life forever.

That isn’t reality but reality is prayer.

Coming before the throne of God every day asking and pleading with Him to intervene in Tracy’s life.

If you are reading this, I ask that you pause for a minute right now and lift Tracy up to the Lord this very moment. Just ask God to intervene in Tracy’s life.

I am going to go further and ask if there are just TWO people who read my blog who will commit to pray with me for 30 DAYS for Tracy. (If more of you are willing to join in, by all means, come on!!) I am going to daily pray for Tracy from this day forward, but I am just asking you to commit to 30 days with me.

If you are one of these people, please leave a comment telling me you will pray with me for Tracy.


Thank you.

9 thoughts on “I want that for Tracy

  1. Elaine, I commit with you to pray for Tracy, Melody and Ashley, whom I assume is Levi’s birth mother. As Rebecca so eloquently put it: I love you and your heart!

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