It is interesting how ordinary events can start something that is life-changing.
It is hard to believe we are coming up on the one year anniversary of Jennifer’s text to me on March 8th of last year asking if we were interested in an adoption situation through her lawyer.
That night, March 8th, was as ordinary as it could possibly be.
Dinner at my parent’s house. Drive home. Bathe Little Bug. Tuck her in for the night.
Receive a text from Jennifer.
Nothing out of the ordinary, but that night was the very night our journey to Sweet Pea began.
And at the time, we had no idea what was ahead.
From that very night until nearly five months later when TPR was signed and I held Sweet Pea for the very first time, God used that time to teach me something I knew in my head at the time, but something that He was now calling me to live by: The simple truth that He is in control of all things.
He brought me to circumstances where my hands were tied. I had no control over anything and God used that to teach me utter dependence on Him.
I’ve been going back in my journals, reading things I wrote during those five months. I am going to share something I wrote five days after the text message that started it all:
March 13, 2011
What a wild, crazy three months it has been! It was three months ago today that we got he call about Tracy being pregnant. And now here we are about to turn in our profile to see if this baby in June is our baby.
I like thinking about it that way. It’s totally in the capable Hands of God. If this is our baby God will bring him/her home to us.
If you really think about it, being in this place is such a peaceful place to be! I don’t have to do anything – besides continue to live my life for God’s glory – because God’s plan will prevail. I don’t have worry if she will pick us because if this is our baby, she will pick us. God is in control. He has our best interest in mind. His plan for bringing another baby to us is already written. He will carry out His plans as we walk in obedience with Him.
I think that is what stands out to me the most about this time.
It really was a peaceful place to be.
Of course there were moments of panic and worry, but overall, God was impressing upon my heart the simple truth that He was in control and nothing I did or didn’t do would change the outcome of being chosen, or not.
All I could do was wait and rest in the knowledge that God already had a plan in place for growing our family from three to four.