By the end of the day yesterday, I was just down. Sweet Pea didn’t seem to be improving (I am taking her to the doctor this morning), Dave and Little Bug were headed off to the family Easter dinner and Egg Hunt and I was sad that I couldn’t post a cute Easter picture of my babies on Facebook like everyone else.
I refused to allow myself to stay “down” because I kept reminding myself way worse things could be happening to my family and a virus isn’t the end of the world. Even if it is the second stomach bug to hit my family in less than a month. (I STILL can’t get over that!)
So after the family left for Easter dinner, Sweet Pea and I “had church” together! I got my laptop and we sat in the rocker singing and listening to many Easter songs on YouTube! Amazing how much songs and singing can lift your spirits just like that. Sweet Pea lay in my lap listening the whole time. It turned out to be a very special moment for me.
While singing, I realized what tomorrow (now today) is: April 9th.
The day that changed the course of my life forever back in 2009.
It was the turning point in my walk through infertility. The day God had planned all along to turn our tears of sorrow into tears of joy, our mourning into dancing.
It was the day we learned of our Little Bug.
Forty-eight days later, I became a mother.
And I have never been the same since.
I was overcome with emotion as I sat with my youngest daughter singing about what Jesus did for us on the cross.
Our God is so faithful!!!
It is good to have these moments where I am deeply reminded of ALL that Christ has done for me – because I deserve none of it – yet in His great love and mercy He has blessed me abundantly in this life.
There will never be an April 9th where I won’t remember what began on that day in the year 2009.
My rescue from infertility and the start of my role as mother – a role I had longed to play since I was but a little girl myself.
I love my little girls with all my heart. I cannot imagine loving them more, but I know I will because love multiplies with time.
How GREAT is the love God has for us.