Dear Readers of this Blog,

I have often contemplated closing this blog down for multiple reasons. I started the blog as a way to keep family and friends informed about our infertility treatments, but infertility treatment days for us are long gone. (Thank goodness.) I’ve wanted to close it down because there are some very not nice people out there and I want to protect the privacy of my family. And I’ve wanted to close it down at times because of the time it takes me to keep it going.

But I haven’t closed it down mainly for one reason and one reason alone.

Romans 28:8 declares that God makes good come from bad. The events that I have shared through this blog certainly are testimony of that truth. There has been much good that has come from my infertility.

One of those good things is that God continuously opens the door for me to minister to and encourage those of you who stumble across my blog while walking the same dark and painful road I walked several years ago.

I have received countless emails from readers whose hearts are breaking because of their infertility. They write telling me that something I wrote in my blog spoke to their heart at just the right time they needed to hear it.

How can I close something down that God is still using for good?

I’ve always just wanted my infertility journey to bring glory and honor to the Name of Jesus. It thrills my heart that God is still using my infertility to bring people to Him.

I also want to say there is no need to apologize for writing me an email and “taking up my time”! I love to hear from you! I love to see how God has used the words I’ve written (which I firmly believe HE puts in my heart to write) to minister to your hurting hearts. I never want to lose touch with those deep rooted feelings of pain, hurt and disappointment that I daily felt as I was waiting for God to reveal His Plan to me. Until the day I die, I pray God continues to take my infertility and use it for good.

So, keep your emails coming. 🙂

I am here for you.



Waiting Time not Wasted Time

Yes, yesterday was a wonderful day. My first Mother’s Day with my precious daughter. However, I want this blog post to be about those of you who are still waiting.

And one of you in particular.

This person has reason to live in self pity. She has waited many years to become a mother. She has endured a miscarriage and she is now going to have to spend more time waiting for her adopted child to join her family.

After finally getting on the list, she learned because of government regulations (she is adopting from Korea), her wait time until actually bringing her child home has now increased by six months.

She has reason to wallow in self pity. She has reason to live the next year or so with a downcast spirit.

But she has chosen to not allow this waiting time to be wasted time. (Her words! Love it!)

During her “waiting time” she is planning a honeymoon with her husband (since they didn’t really get a week away when they were married). She is also planning to take a trip to Turkey to visit a friend, go on a short term mission’s trip, begin training and run a marathon for Leukemia and go horseback ridding.

How beautiful is this? Seizing the moment and taking advantage of the life you have to live now.

She is to be commended for her positive outlook on life despite some extremely dreary circumstances.


It is a marvelous thing to watch God at work in your life.

I anxiously wait with you to see what God is going to do over the next year.

You are a true picture of a Christian woman persevering through each and every trial with the ultimate desire to bring glory and honor to our Lord.

May God bless your days as you continue to seek Him and wait for the Something More He has planned for you.

Praying for you,



Today is Mother’s Day. Today my mind is focused on the many women who are walking the road of infertility.

Today their minds are filled with …

Why am I still walking this road?

When will I ever get to experience the joy of motherhood?

Will I ever become a mother?

What is the purpose behind all this pain and heartache?

Why are people who “aren’t trying” pregnant and here I am longing for a child for years and still with empty arms?

Why after everything we went through to achieve pregnancy did we miscarry?


If I had a penny for every time I have asked “Why?” we could have paid in full for our IVF cycle up front!

When you are drowning the sea of infertility and forced to live through days like today, the pain and heartache is enough to make you feel as though you are suffocating and you won’t be able to take in your next breath.

It hurts. It cuts us to the very core of who we are. On days like today, we want to curl up in a little ball in a cave and hibernate until the sun goes down and all the “Mother’s Day” festivities are over.

I know nothing I can type onto the screen of my computer at this very moment can take away the pain people feel today.

But I would like to say a little something.

If you are a child of God He has a plan and you must trust Him with it. You must believe God will not leave you where you are today.

Things may not turn out the way you think they should or even the way you are praying they turn out.

I am living proof of that!

God had HIS PLAN all along and Little Bug was it. Adoption was certainly never my plan but I am living the miracle of adoption and I wouldn’t change a thing … not a thing.

I want to challenge you to do something today.

There are times (like today) when we need to curl up in a ball and hibernate as we cry and scream out in our anguish.

But then we must pick ourselves up off the floor and press on.

After giving yourself time to mourn today, meditate on God’s Promises found in Jeremiah 29:11 and Ephesians 3:20.

“For I know the plans I have you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”   Jeremiah 29:11

Glory be to God who by his mighty power at work within us is able to do far more than we could ever dare to ask or even dream of.        Ephesians 3:20

Allow those promises to seep into your heart as you read. In my journey, I have found that it is these two verses that act as a soothing balm to surround my wounded hurting heart. Take these verses today and bind them to your heart. Claim those promises.

Trusting God isn’t as hard as waiting on God. It’s the waiting that is so incredibly hard.

But realize you are waiting on something that is better than you can imagine today.

You are waiting on something more and if you are a Child of God and your trust is in Him, your something more is coming. 


I placed a white rose on the table to represent Little Bug because to me white symbolizes redemption and only our God could take something as ugly as infertility and make something beautiful come out of it.

Even in the midst of today’s pain, believe that God’s something more for you is coming.

A Post Dedicated to my Infertility Blogger Friends

I was just thinking about all my blogger friends and realized there are six of us, including me, that are going through IUIs at right about the same time.

Some of us have already received wonderful news, others have once again received news they didn’t want to hear and still others are in the 2-week wait.

Beth got positive blood test results on Tuesday! Beth is pregnant! (Have those three words sunk in yet, Beth?!)

Alesha found out today she is not pregnant. (Alesha, we are praying for you.)

My friend at The Red Stain will have her first IUI procedure on Friday. So she will have her blood test sometime in early October.

Ashley will find out this Friday if her IUI worked.

MT had her IUI last week and will have her blood test on October 1st.

And then I am 9 days into the 2-week wait with 5 more days to go.

I wish we could ALL receive the news Beth received on Tuesday. But, girls, we must realize there is something far greater going on here than positive pregnancy tests. There is a plan and purpose for each and every one of us that God Himself has intricately designed.

I like what my devotion said for today. It was on one of my favorite verses as I have walked this journey…Jeremiah 29:11. The devotion was about God’s Plans for our lives. There were three main points.

  1. In times of trials in our life, we discover how faithful God is.
  2. God knows what we can handle.
  3. He will “make a way” so we can exit this season of our life stronger, and ready for what He has next.

The fact that we have a problem is a sign that we also have a promise! It’s only a matter of time before God reveals the solution.

A matter of time.

To some of us it may feel like time is running out. (I feel like that sometimes.) To others, it may feel like we have been on this infertility road for far too long. (I think we all could say we have felt that way.)

But God does not measure time like we do – in seconds, minutes, hours and days. God measures time in LOVE. He knows exactly what we need at exactly the precise, perfect time. His timing is always perfect.

Beth’s time was Tuesday. Alesha’s time wasn’t today. But chin up Alesha (and anyone else, myself included, who may receive the same news this month). It’s only a matter of time before God reveals to you His perfect plan, intricately designed just for you.